Here's your progress pic Karine (and Auntie Deli, I know you check this often for a new pic). I didn't get all spruced up for ya, but at least you can see where I'm at now :O)

I had my weigh in today rather than Christmas Day. Down 2 lbs! What a day to break into the 180's, right on Christmas eve, LoL! That should keep me in line :OP

For today's WI I really didn't expect a loss at all. I only exercised ONE time this week. I've been so busy getting ready for Christmas. It has taken up my gym time. Anyways, here's my stats for WI today...

Your current weight : 191 lb
Weight change since your last recorded weight | -3.2 lb
Total weight change to date | -67 lb

I had a great day today. I actually went running. For real running, like out on the street. It was crazy! Definitely THE hardest workout I've had since I started exercising. It was way more fun than going to the gym because I wasn't bored AT ALL. Man, was it hard though... I can't say that enough! I wore my heart rate monitor and my heart rate was up there the whole time. I pushed it the whole 40 mins. Occasionally I'd do a real brisk walk, but just for long enough to catch my breath, and then I was off! I thought I'd only last maybe 10 mins, but I actually did 40 mins with no more than 10-12 mins of it brisk walking. Kudo's to all you runners out there, you guys are tuff :O)
After my run I made dinner for the family, hopped in the shower, and headed off to my doctor's appointment. I was going there for an ear infection, but I wanted to discuss my weight loss too. I haven't seen a doctor since I started this journey. Anyways, he said that if I wanted to...I could stop losing weight now :O) He said I'm perfectly healthy at this weight. I told him I didn't want to stop yet, and asked what would an ideal goal weight be for me? He did all his calculations and came up with 172 lbs. That's 5 lbs more than I was aiming for :O) He also said that my weight loss so far was *very* dramatic. And that these last 22 lbs are going to probably take a year to lose (Ha! I'll show him). He asked me if I'm eating enough food, I told him I eat all my daily points and some of my AP's, he seemed happy with that. Then I told him my exercise routine and he said that I could continue doing what I am for activity the rest of my life. Anyways, it was SO nice to be told by a doctor that I am at a healthy weight. I haven't heard that in 4.5 yrs. It's also nice to only have 22 lbs left to lose.

Weigh In today = 194.2
So I'm down 2 lbs for this week. My gym pass ran out today. I'm going to try doing other activities this week just to change it up a bit.

Every Sunday Dh and I take the kids to swimming, and then McDonald's. Anyways, I was walking back and forth from the till to the table giving the kids their ice cream cones, and the teller asked me from across the restaurant what kind of dressing I wanted for my salad. I said, "What do you have that's low-fat"? There were two overweight people sitting at a table listening, and DH said they gave me a dirty look, and then looked at each other and rolled her eyes like to say *Why does SHE need low fat dressing? She's not fat!*
Dh told me this and I was just beaming :O) I finally don't feel "fat" anymore when I'm out in public, and this kinda proves that other people aren't seeing me as that way either :O)

I didn't exercise much this week and I still lost 2.4lbs. I feel pretty lucky. I wasn't expecting much of a loss this time around. So I've lost over 60lbs now (not including the weight I lost before Weight Watchers) in 20 weeks time.

This pic brings me right back to my childhood, remember eating icicles when you were a kid? Good times :O)



Ty lookin' cute on his late night walk.



This is my little pug dog Tang that we just got back after someone held her hostage for a year.



Jade and I walkin' in a Winter Wonderlandddddddd :O)

Yesterday I received a card in the mail. It says this...

"Just *so* darn proud of my girl...I LOVE and admire you. You're the absolute greatest. Your dear friend forever, Karine"

How lucky am I to have a friend like that? This is such a crazy time of year, and my dear thoughtful friend Karine took the time to send me this card about my weightloss. I love this girl, she means so much to me :O) THANK YOU KARINE. I really needed this yesterday. I was having the most horrible day, and this really made me feel good. You are so incredibly thoughtful *mwa*

HA! TOM just arrived, that must've been my problem. I have a Passion Party tonight too. I hate doing PP's when I feel like this, so NOT sexy, LoL!

This is the first week that I feel just BLAH about Weight Watchers. It's not that I don't want to do it, or that I'm struggling with food, I'm just SO not into it. I'm wondering if it's depression. Kinda feels like it. It's midnight and I'm sitting here with 7.5 daily points left. This has happened to me the last three nights. I'm not hungry, NOTHING sounds exciting to eat. I even have a Cadbury Thin bar sitting at my desk, but I just don't want it! Food is NOT turning me on this week, and neither is exercise. I went to the gym tonight, and I only did a half an hour of cardio. I never do that! Half an hour is peanuts, and the night before at home I did a measly 15 freaking minutes. 15 minutes? Why did I bother? I've lost my drive and I hope I get it back. I don't expect any kind of a loss this week. This is the first time I don't really even care (as long as I don't gain). I know, I suck...sure hope I get my oomph back :O(

Well, I did it! There's no turning back now. I finally reached ONEDERLAND, meaning I'm out of the 200's. This was actually my New Years Goal, I guess that I'll have to make a new one. I weighed in today at 198.6 which means a 3.8lb loss for the week. I've lost 59.4lbs on Weight Watchers now, and 82.4lbs all together (lost some before joining Weight Watchers). I can't believe this! I honestly didn't think that I'd be reaching this important milestone this week, but I did :O) It just goes to show that hard work DOES pay off. I was in that gym everyday this week sweatin' my ass off. Sitting here bawling like a baby, LoL. I can't believe how happy I am.

202 Lbs here :O) Just a random shot I took with my kids.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO! Can you tell I'm excited? Well, the scale wasn't budgin' this week at all, and I was pretty stressed about it to be honest. HappyChix gave me some excellent advise, she told me to lay off the exercise for a couple of days because I've been so sick this week. I took her advise and didn't workout Fri, Sat, or Sun, and low and behold...I dropped 5.4 BIG ONES BAY-BEE! I can NOT believe I lost that much! So I've lost 55.6lbs in total since I joined WW 4.5 months ago, and I've lost 78.6lbs in total (includes the weight I lost just before I joined WW). I am SO, SO close to Onederland that I can't even believe it! That was my New Years Goal. I guess I'll be reaching that goal sooner than I thought :O)

The scale isn't moving this week and I'm getting really pissed off. I'm sorry ChunkyMonkey, I've cheated this week and been peeking at the scale. I'm bad, I know. I'm getting really frusterated though, the scale isn't budging at all. I've been exercising even though I'm still sick, and for what? It's not doing anything. Weight Loss can be so frusterating. If I don't show a loss on the scale this week I will FREAK OUT. Just a warning to you all, it aint gonna be pretty. On a more positive note, I bought another new pair of pants last night. I got some brown chords, and two plain tshirts. I think I'll wear them tonight :O)

I've lost FIFTY big ones BAY-BEE! WOOT WOOT! I can't believe I've lost my 4 yr old child (and he's a big kid) in weight. He's heavy! I can barely pick him up. So only 7 lbs away from being out of the 200's now. I can't wait to be in Onderland. Life couldn't be better. I met with a group of the Weight Watchers ladies who live in my area on Saturday, and they were wonderful! They do a big clothing exchange at all the meetups so I came home with a really nice shirts (Thank you Susan). It's nice to have some "real life" support. That was my first time meeting people from the internet (besides Coralie), and it was really neat. My last week was really lacking in exercise. I only went to the gym twice during the week. I was so sick though, normally I work out with a cold, but this was more than just a cold. So this week, I must get my 6 days in at the gym. I want to do alot of running on the treadmill this week, so that hopefully I can take it to the road for some real running the following week. I'm also dabbling with Vegetarianism now. It's been a few days since I've eaten meat. It's just really grossing me out now, my tastes are changing. So time to do some research and figure out how to have a healthy Vegan diet :O)

Just posting a pic of my hard workin' Demo Man. I don't know how he can do this day after day.

Here's what losing 47 lbs does for ya. I'm still not happy with my appearance, but it is getting better.

So last night we decided to take the kids to McDonald's, halfway there Dh looks at me and says, "Oh no, I'm not going with you to McDonald's wearing THOSE pants". You really need some clothes, we are going to the mall first. So I go into Reitman's and head straight for the 14+ section. Grab about 15 pairs of Size 18, try them on and they are all HUGE! I could fit 2 fists into the front of my pants, so I go back out and grab about 10 pair of Size 16's. OMG! They are all too big too!!! Then panic sets in...what do I do? I don't even know what section of the store to shop in now! This is all so new. So, I ended up being a size 15, I was a snug 22 when I started WeightWatchers. I got to shop in the REGULAR size section of the store, there were so many options that I couldn't decide what to get. It felt so good. Normally, I would have had to buy just whatever I managed to find that would fit, style didn't matter. Now, I got to pick from all the cool clothes. This is a huge NSV for me. Now DH wants to throw out my "fat pants" and I won't let him, LOL. I will posts some pics of me in my new clothes after my shower :O)

Edited to add pics.
First is the "fat pants" lol. Posting so you can all laugh at me (I can't believe people actually read this blog). Second is the nice new ones. 211 Lbs here.

I am NOT weighing myself until WI day. I'm starting to drive myself crazy weighing every fucking day! I need to put the scale away, and only pull it out once a week. *Note to self* NO MORE WEIGHING.

Well, I caved. I had a mini Cadbury Chocolate bar last night before bed. I more than had the points for it though. I wasn't going to indulge in any Halloween candy at all this year. Oh well! I actually don't feel guilty at all, and was able to stop at just 1. The scale didn't reflect the chocolate bar at all, quite the opposite actually. I'm down another 2.6 lbs today. So I've lost 6.6lbs in t he last 4 days. Hopefully it stays that way for WI day :O)

When we were taking the kids trick or treating last night, one of the neighbours two doors up said to her husband (not meant for us to hear, it was while she was shutting the door), "Oh my God! That girl has lost a TON of weight". I know that's a huge compliment but I actually felt really embarrased. I can't believe that I was *that* fat! Here's pics of the kids in their costumes...

Just before trick or treat time, all the kids switched costumes! Jade isn't in these pics but she changed to "Tigger", and the boys were Batman and Superman. Kids! They just can't make up their minds...

I just peeked at the scale, and I'm down another 2.4 lbs. Do you know what that means? I am NO longer Obese!!! I can't believe it. I just saw a loss on the scale yesterday of 2.2 lbs, and now another big loss today? And I'm not dehydratyed I drank a ton of water yesterday. This is too weird, but I stepped on my scale 16 zillion times and the number is the same each time. Maybe it's the 15 AP's I earned yesterday? Needless to say, I'm ecstatic :O) Still going to wait 6 days until my WI day to record the weight. This gives me so much motivation to do extra well this week. No longer Obese YAY!!!!!
Weight 211.6
Body Fat% 34.1

Weigh In today went great. I'm down another 2.2 lbs, and soooooo close to no longer being obese! I still have to take those measurements, why don't I ever do that? My Body Fat% dropped today too, it went from 34.7 to 34.4 :O) Yippee! I'm going to be so dedicated to the gym this week. MUST lose 2 lbs and no longer be obese.

Moving right along here. Tomorrow is WI day for me. I'm a little nervous. I only earned 33 AP's this week, not my usual 50+ I guess that's still more than the recommended 28. I've been going pretty hard since I started at the gym 7 weeks ago, so I kind of toned it down a bit this week. Who knows, maybe the change of pace will have shocked my metabolism. About another 12 hrs will tell. Just putting a reminder here to myself....SELF, when you WI tomorrow remember to take some measurements. It'll be interesting to see how many inches I lose, and a great motivator for when the losses on the scale slow down.

After having 3 beautiful children in 4 yrs I've found myself stuck with ALOT of extra weight. I ended up with toxemia in all 3 of my pregnancies, and they all ended in Emergency C-Sections. My youngest child turned 1 this year and it made me realize it's time to buckle down and get back on track. I joined Weight Watchers online because I have lost 55 lbs on the program in between pregnancies. This program truly works. This time, I'm steppin' it up a notch though. Not only do I want to be thin again, but I want to be in great shape. I've become a gym rat, and I love it. I've lost 42 lbs now in 15 weeks time. I hope to be at my goal weight by my 30th birthday. I'm about halfway there :O)

PROGRESS PICS!

These pictures show me at 258 lbs the day I started Weight Watchers, and 15 weeks later at 219 lbs. I'm finally starting to be able to smile again in the second picture. Still a long ways to go, but already I'm feeling better.